A few days ago I did my first live video in a while sharing how it’s been a shit couple of months for myself and Hot Fiance – not between us, but around us. 🥺
I’ve had this level of anxiety building at times because for around four months now I’ve been working with my team to get my business set up so that during those times that the sht hits the fan, I’ll have passive income streams in my biz and can just take a month or two off work if I need or want to.
I have savings in the bank and can do that now, but at the moment if I don’t work I don’t bring in money.
There are many joys to running my own biz and not having to ask a boss for time off is one of them, but I also don’t get sick pay or annual pay and so have been working my butt off behind the scenes so that I’m financially set up for when things go sideways – knowing full well our parents are getting older and we have to set ourselves up for future shit shows. 🫣
So it’s ironic that during this exact building phase in my business, I needed to make an emergency trip home to the UK over Christmas for a couple of weeks to be with my fam over there, and then exactly a week after I got home Cam’s mum had a serious accident and spent 12 days on life support before she passed away. 😭
Cam and I have only become stronger during this time, which is what happens in healthy relationships.
I’ve reflected a lot on how these times would have felt with any of my exes – I’d have felt like a burden, there’d have been loads of arguments, stonewalling, gaslighting, and generally so much more stress than there already was.
I’ve been so proud watching Cam and how he’s handled this fcking awful time, and how he’s been with me throughout it too. 😍
In the background, my team has been great and have known I’m not able to give 100% in the way that I normally could.
I’ve kept up with the tasks I needed to get done and sent as much to my team to schedule as possible, but there’s been one specific date looming which is now only a week away – Valentine’s Day.
These last four months have been gearing up to me doing my very first live webinar on breaking free from abusive relationships called Break The Cycle.
My team asked me if I wanted to delay the date, but for me, V Day is such an important day for those who are in shtty relationships. 💔
In my past relationships it would just mark another day of disappointment. Another day of feeling massively unloved, ignored and unwanted.
I know how many others will be feeling this same way on that particular day and for that reason, I wanted to bring together as many ladies as possible on a live call to build a sense of community – I know you feel alone, but you’re not, is my biggest message. 💝
In the background I’ve been feeling unsettled, stressed, anxious, underperforming, heading towards burnout and needing Carly time. 😶🌫️
I usually block off a day or two a fortnight to focus just on me – this was a new thing I’ve implemented since becoming a full time boss and I had literally just felt like I had my perfect routine down pat when it all went to sht. 💩
So I’ve had fck all Carly time and I really feel it this week – have felt totally drained and like I need to recharge my battery.🪫
These last couple of days have been all about that – focusing on sleep, rest, watching netflix, sauna’s walks, getting back into the gym (gently), listening to music, reading.
Carly time is all about whatever I feel like doing most in that moment, not working through a self-care to-do list (which is totally how I used to approach it!).
This webinar is massively important to me and is only a few days away.
I want to give it 100% – even if I’m only feeling 20% that day, I promise whoever is on the call will get 100% of that 20%. 🔋
Right now what is recharging me is solo time.
But I know when I get on that webinar and educate women about what’s really going on for them in their relationships, that fire and passion will come out in me and switch me back on again. 🔥
I’m here for it.
So if you’re a woman who has a history of toxic, unhealthy relationships (whether you’re currently in one or not), please join me on my first ever free Break The Cycle webinar.
📅 It’ll be on Saturday, 14 February at 11am ASWT (Perth), 2pm Sydney, 3amUK.
💻 A replay will be available if you can’t make it live, but you have to register if you want to be sent the replay.
There’s something special that I’ll be sharing on the call and those registered for the webinar will be the first ones to hear about it.
REGISTER HERE
Much love,
