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The ups + downs of chronic pain

 

Sexy photo isn’t it! 😂

That’s me in traction.

I do this when the pain in my neck gets hectic. 

About 11 years ago I wrote off my motorbike and landed on my head… that turned into a couple of bulging discs in my neck.

Back in 2010 I slipped two discs in my lower back and these days just have arthritis there but a lot of my spine seems to be fairly compromised.

Yes I lift weights.. 🏋🏼‍♀️ and it actually helps more than it hinders.

This morning I lay in bed and cried I was so sore, getting shooting pains down one arm and back and moving as slow as a snail. 🐌 

So I’ve been for an infared sauna (note to self, don’t put ice rub on first), done my first lot of traction for the day and currently laying on two hot water bottles. 🧖🏼‍♀️ 

No gym today! Chiro and rehab exercises later.

This feels like a full time job. 😂😂😂

On good days (more good days than bad these days) I’m a 1-5/10 on the pain scale and can mostly ignore it.

On bad days I’m an 8-9/10 and can’t turn my head properly, feel like I’ve been bottled on the back of the head, have a 24/7 headache and pain all over my neck, shoulder, upper back and down my arm as well as numb fingers. 🥹

I pretty much have a hot water bottle on me at all times even at work. 😂

I should be sponsored by DoTerra ice rub I use so much of it!

I’m not saying any of this for sympathy; I’m writing it for others who experience daily pain too.

There are some days where I wish I could run away from my body and my head goes into dark places about what the future looks like if this never goes away. 🥹

I recently watched Lady Gaga’s documentary – I had no idea she lives with fibromyalgia and experiences pain all over her body. 

She was lying there with ice packs all over her, with someone massaging her face and jaw, explaining what the pain felt like. 🧊 💆‍♀️ 

She turned to the camera crying, saying she wonders how people with constant pain cope without the resources she has, how do they live life? 🤔 

I felt inspired watching her share her most vulnerable moments with the world. ❤️‍🩹 

If you’re experiencing chronic pain too, you’re not alone.

It can feel lonely especially as most of the time you just have to mask how you feel even if you’re really sore, and just get on with life. 🤷🏼‍♀️ 

When Hot Fiancé buggered his knee and was in a knee brace for months, every stranger out there commented on it when we walked past them. 🦵🏼 

But when you live with chronic pain, people don’t know unless you talk about it.

You can’t see it, even if it’s always there.

Those closest to me who I spend a lot of time with know. 

They see it in my face, how I hold my body, how I go quiet and not as loud and gobby as I usually am. 😂

(Secretly I’m sure they love the break haha) 😜 

A big shout out to those who put up with all my shit! 📢

And a bigger shoutout to all of you who get it and experience similar shit. 📣

Much love to all of you 💞🫶🏻💞

Catcha on the flip side,

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