“Remember that what you are seeking is also seeking you”
As a 15 year old, I used to completely do my own head in pondering philosophical questions.
Why are we here?
What happens when we die?
I used to sit there and try and imagine what happens when we die – I couldn’t imagine not existing anymore, so what happens instead?
Never not existing?
Combine those thoughts with hormones.
Yeah. HARD WORK.
I knew what I saw around me wasn’t all there was.
What I saw was you go to school, get good grades. Go to Uni, get good grades.
Work in a job that you hate for the rest of your life and pay your taxes.
Find a partner who can put up with your shit for long enough they’ll want to marry you and make babies with you.
Deep down I felt this weird longing feeling, and knew there’s more to life than “normal” stuff.
But nobody around me seemed to be talking about it; nobody around me was spiritual or into personal development (not that I had a clue what that even was back then).
So I got into Psychology and Philosophy at school to try and find some answers.
While Psychology was a natural fit for me, Philosophy at that age did my head in even more.
I felt like you could have a theory and if you waffled bollocks about it for long enough then you could get an A in an essay about it, but I still got no answers out of it.
And then I met a bunch of friends in London at 21 who I consider my soul family.
I finally discovered people who questioned life like I did.
I stopped questioning life in the way I used to; instead of it doing my head in, I became curious.
17 years into this personal development journey, I still don’t have any answers.
But the questions have become a lot more fun.
And the realisations and reflections I have about life, myself and people keep life interesting.
I still ponder a lot. Every day in fact.
Maybe I’ll figure it all out someday 🙂
What deep n meaningful questions do you ponder?
I’d love to hear them.
Catcha on the flip side,